11 days

And all I can think of is getting back to Nome so I can be with Brian.

All I have done since I have been home is miss him. I have so much free time by myself that I have been doing nothing but think about him 24/7.

It's getting on my nerves, as I have no clue how much he has been missing me, even though I know he does in fact miss me.

I just feel like I am the one doing all the missing.

I know all my anger and frustration will go away once I see him next week. I just need to hear him tell me he misses me more often.

This has been a hard trip for me so far. I have done most of the work myself, and without any help. Mom had pledged she would help me, but all she has done so far is do my laundry and pack one box----that she hadn't even taped closed yet. She's taking a nap now, and I am kinda glad, since I don't want to deal with her anymore.

Brian had been pressuring me into getting a touch screen phone, and I don't know why, but I am falling into it. I already talked to Dave, and he is willing to foot the bill for a new phone for me until I get the money to pay him back. Mom gave me grief about it, saying I didn't need a new phone-which she is right. It would be nice to please my boyfriend, but I am doing alot more than he is right now.

If I cannot get a hold of him, he is doing the following:
working
sleeping
watching House
playing Everquest II

Like I said, I know he is thinking about me, but I am sure it is definitely not as much as I am thinking about him.

I am going fucking crazy, and now I cannot wait to get to St. Louis, where I will be meeting up with friends and family and have more on my mind than just Brian.