my life with Brian

I haven't looked at my previous posts, but I figured I would update. We have been together now for 2 months, and it has already felt like an eternity. In a good way.
He has become my best friend, and I have truly fallen in love with him.

He treats me like a princess. He makes my heart jump a little every time I see him, even after 2 months. He looks at me in a way that I have never been looked at before that makes me know he cares about me, and I know his feelings are deep and true.

We have 'plans' to do all kinds of things for the summer, winter.... I am comfortable that we are pretty solid. We are actually in the beginning phases of planning a trip with Missy, Doug, and Brian and I to St. Louis and Memphis in the fall.

I am actually considering having Brian and I drive to Seattle to have my car shipped to Nome. I am hoping by that time we will be strong enough to probably get a place together here, that way we can save on bills, etc...


EXCEPT.....

Brian is in the midst of a nasty divorce with Marlene, who is the most vile, evil, sadistic, abusive person I have ever known. Not to mention, their little girl, Kalissa, is stuck in the middle of it all. Brian wants to let Marlene have everything except his truck and Kalissa.

She is so evil, she may get too much custody of Kalissa, and Brian wants full. Marlene puts her other 4 kids in the possession of drug dealers and felons and child molesters, and she still serves a good chance of getting at least half custody. Marlene plots and gets away with murder.

This is killing him, and in turn, killing me. I know I am a strong person, but I don't know how much more of this I can handle if the divorce doesn't happen soon. I always said I would never date a man who was ever married or had children, and I just happen to find the man of my dreams that has to be in the thick of a nasty divorce, who just happens to be everything I ever wanted or needed in a man.

I am frustrated and a little heartbroken, because I am not sure he understands how much this is affecting me. It will be nice to leave for 3 weeks and be away from the stress of it all, although I am going to probably cry every day I am away because I will miss him so much.

I know I have talked retardedly in the past about men and dating and 'the one'..... But I know in my heart of hearts that he is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.