RUN by Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

ROAD TRIP PLANS!!!!

What I really want to do if I actually get this damn job in Palo ALto!

My cousin Andrea lives in Parker, Colorado, just outside of Denver. I would drive from St. Louis to there. About 12 or so hours. I would stay for 2 days. (851 miles)

Next stop: Alamogordo, New Mexico. I would visit my friend Jamie, who has been he love of my live. Very unrequited, but not in the typical sense. He just doesn't know how to let his guard down and let someone love him. Very complex man. I love him still, and there will always be a place in my heart for that man. No matter what, he will always be my friend, and I will always have a part of me that will get week in the knees any time I would get to see him. I would probably stay at least 2 days.(539 miles)

Stop #3: Flagstaff, Arizona if my friend Andrea gets a job there. I haven't seen her since July, and I miss the hell outta her :( (532 miles)

Last STOP.....................PALO ALTO!!!!!!!!!! 742 miles, probably 12 hours of a drive. If I end up there too early, well....I can just make a nice little friendly pit stop in San Francisco to reunite with the man of my dreams. Mr. Sean-Michael Robert Hurley. A man for whom I have known since I was 18 years old, liberated for the first time in my life, and away from home in Texas for Fire School.

He was everything I had ever deramed of in a man, and it was all before I had even met him. I have been with many men since him. I have had several fasiled attempts at relationships and many heartbreaks too. In the back of my mind, after all of these years, I never was able to shake him out of my mind. I finally looked him up last year on MySpace, and we have been talking online ever since. I am really having overly high hopes about this *hopefully positive* trip to Cali.

I am hoping I get there, he falls madly in love with me, and that's the end of all my suffering days in the life of a single woman. I fantasize about it daily, sadly enough. But I have a great rooted feeling that all these years of waiting for my Mr. Right are going to be over soon.

I have spoken witht the Lord several times regarding my dreams of being with this man, and I know that He will make the right decision for me. I am just hoping we are both on the same page here.

here we go....THE ROSTER

1)James Edward Forrest Robert Evans(US ARMY; 11-17-1997)

2)Sean-Michael Robert Hurley(US ARMY @ Goodfellow AFB, San Angelo, TX; May 1998)

3)Alejandro "Alex" Diaz(USMC @ GFAFB, SA, TX;summer 1998)

4)Jack Topakitchian(same as above;summer 1998)

5)Tre Wright(same as above;summer 1998)

6)Blake Raley(same as above;summer 1998)

7)Chris Hamm(US ARMY, same location;summer 1998)

8)Mike Konieczny(RSHS classmatesummer/winter1998-1999)

9)Darin Lyle Davis

10)Brad Richard Patton(met at a bar called Steamers in Washington, MO. Dated for 4 months;December 99-March/April 2000)

11)Nick Scarpino 2000-2002

12)Kevin Fone(went to HS with my sister, met at Melissa Henry's wedding) summer 99

13)Ryan Katigbak(met through Jamie Yonko)spring 03

14)Chris Musca(aquaintance of Jamie Yonko)summer 03

15)Kevin ???(weirdo at another guy named Kevin's house) summer 03?

16)Jamie Yonko(worked with at Lone Star) 2-1-2003 to 9-05

17)Frank O'Brien(co-worker at Lone Star)summer 02

18)Jason S.???(co-worker at Lone Star) summer 03

19)Mike Bach(co-worker at Lone Star) summer 03-fall of 03

20)Andrew Gregory(met at the Brick Bistro via Amanda Hilke) summer 03?

21)Neil S???(met via Tammy Suess)one time, August 05

22)Bryce Schlect(met on Blues Cruise 2-2004 through 8-04)

23)Brian Fox(met at Margarita Mama's with Kelly Leone) summer 03

24)Mike A.(met at Senses nightclub while out with Susie) 11-06

25)Kit Wagner(6-21-07; met via his cousin Steve Boing)

26)Edwin Cook(aquaintance of friends in Nome, AK; 7-7-07)

27)Milan Lidell Schield(friend, Nome AK; 9-3-07)

28)Brian Cannon(my best friend Missy's brother and my friend, Nome, AK 1-31-09)

29)Travis Andersen(friend, met via Brian and said group 11/2/09, Nome, AK)

30) Joee Haugen (friend at first...12/13/09, Nome, AK)