Sunday, June 15, 2008
Friday, June 13, 2008
lately
I have been thinking alot about Sean and Jamie alot.
I have exchanged a few emails with Jamie since he has been in Iraq. I have had increased feelings for him lately, and I think the prime suspect is time alone to think. I just have way too much of it.
So I decided to write him a letter. A long letter. I bought a smaller sized spiral notebook the other day, and I have been writing in it almost daily my thoghts about us, and my feelings to him, as a form of therapy. I can't bring myself to tell him my true feelings, so writing it down on paper takes a load off. Maybe one day I'll give it to him. WHo knows?
I need to do the same for Sean. I just hope that if I can do all this so-called therapy, one day when I am not thinking about it too much, the REAL Mr Right will appear, and I can laugh at all my nonsense.
Of course, I am mad at the both of them for allowing me to be led by a string, but in the same right I did it to myslef. I have NO reaqson WHATSOEVER to have feelings for either of these men. Just so happens, I do anyways because I have nothing else better to do.
I have exchanged a few emails with Jamie since he has been in Iraq. I have had increased feelings for him lately, and I think the prime suspect is time alone to think. I just have way too much of it.
So I decided to write him a letter. A long letter. I bought a smaller sized spiral notebook the other day, and I have been writing in it almost daily my thoghts about us, and my feelings to him, as a form of therapy. I can't bring myself to tell him my true feelings, so writing it down on paper takes a load off. Maybe one day I'll give it to him. WHo knows?
I need to do the same for Sean. I just hope that if I can do all this so-called therapy, one day when I am not thinking about it too much, the REAL Mr Right will appear, and I can laugh at all my nonsense.
Of course, I am mad at the both of them for allowing me to be led by a string, but in the same right I did it to myslef. I have NO reaqson WHATSOEVER to have feelings for either of these men. Just so happens, I do anyways because I have nothing else better to do.
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